I am due to fly on Saturday with my husband and son. All of the anxieties & nerves are kicking in. It is very frustrating to me, as I want nothing more than to be able to get on an airplane and enjoy it. My husband is a pilot (he flies the Lear 31, 35 & 45), I have worked previously for an air ambulance (as a dispatcher). So, it is not the lack of understanding aviation. I always meet the pilots, I have toured a control tower, it does help to listen to the radio when flying United. But, despite all of this ... I still am a nervous wreck. It definitely has gotten worse since the birth of my son. There is such a feeling of responsibility. I feel like if something were to happen it is all my fault. I do not want him to see me like this, nor do I want for him to grow up with such a fear. I have read many books and tried all of the self-soothing techniques ... nothing seems to help. So, for the very first time I asked the dr for something to help me. He prescribed me Xanax. So, I will see if this helps at all. However, I would like to be able to conquer the fear than take med's when I fly. I have already been checking the weather for Saturday at both our dep & arrival airports. There is a 60% chance of t-storms from the dep airport, clear at arr airport. I have checked the "safety" records of all the regionals that we'll be flying on. Not sure if that helped or hindered. I do feel as if my "fear" of flying is not a just a "fear" ... I feel as if it may be linked to PTSD. I do not like non-stop flights, I actually like a couple shorter legs so that I can get off the airplane & catch my breath. I prefer the regional jets over the big ones (esp MD80 - my least fav). Well, I know that is a lot to take in .... but anyone have any suggestions? I want to enjoy this ... Especially, since my husband is looking at joining a flying club so that we would have access to fly ourselves on some trips. Which in theory certainly is more appealing than spending 10- 12 hours in a car with a one & a half year old. Thank you in advance for all comments.




